Dopeness: Runaway Short Film

Vengeful, Vigilant, but Not Quite Villian

I've been so aggravated by everything lately. Fed up with a lot and my patience have been running on E since last friday. With out going into too much details females having been pissing me off consecutively for different reasons. Fakeness, over sensitivity, advantage taking, false loyalties, lies, and outlandish comments that is slap worthy. Smh everything has been hectic lately. School has me split. Some of college I care about and the other hoops I wish I could just ignore all together. My job takes too much time out my weekends so I can't get much done over the weekend. Friends and family stressing me out, I feel so close to snapping, its all bad. Thinking bout doing some evil shit all week on different platforms and to different people. Like I'm tired of being the nice and loving guy, I feel like I want to be a straight asshole to everybody(except a select few). I've been fantasizing about causing emotional and physical harm to certain people. The evil in me is growing and if this keeps up I don't know what will happen. Good thing though I'm on the decline of this pressure and my lyrical fire was ignited the other day. But still I'm not back on a level head. Pray for me.

Anti-Hero Music:

Letter To My Future Misses

Right off the back I apologize for the male I used to be. There are things and situations I could have handle much differently but I didn't. I gave into fear, lust, and stupidity. Though I have not truly paid for my crimes I've tried real hard to become a real good person, better than I was. Now I always had the mind of a good man and the morals to back it up, but like Shaq I sucked with the follow through(Old ass reference). Even though I never viewed females as nothing more than objects of pleasure, I have had instances where that's all we was to each other. But I guarantee to you that you won't be just the object of my pleasure but the object of my heart.

I want you to occupy my time, my thoughts, my fantasies, my love at all times. Loyalty is a big thing to me. I may have a lot of female friends trust me if we are exclusive I am strictly yours and yours only. In the few real relationships I've been in I never strayed and I will continue not to with you. I've been told countless times that I'm so different from other guys, though you might agree with that statement please don't have the expectation that I am a flawless being because there are kinks in my shining armor sort of speak. Sometimes bluntness can be a problem. Also I keep quiet when things bother me but I expect you to tell me everything that ails you. That is SO backwards right. Oddly enough Im an open book when we get to know each other(like I would tell you EVERYTHING IN DETAIL about my past). I have no shame in the things I've done because every encounter with your beautiful species has been a learning experience and believe me I'm taking all that I've learned into this relationship. But for some reason I somewhat close when we start dating and keep my pain away from you because I don't want you to suffer cuz I suffer....

I'm such a loving dude that all I want to do is make you happy mentally, emotionally, and physically. I hope you're just as loving as me. I can be a headache and I'm telling you I will need your help with myself. Not financially I got that covered. I need my woman to be strong so when I'm not she can support me and bring me back to reality. I need a fighter because all relationships have rocky paths and many implode and become non-existent. To be truthful I don't want us to experience a quick demise if we have to end at all. A relationship is a working progress and if we don't want to fight we are doomed from the start. All I want to do is be a good man that my future kids can be proud of. Will you help me be that man? Or will you just pretend to be someone else to get what you want out of me? I sure hope not. I don't like playstation so I will never play for some kind of fool. So come to me from day one without your Masquerade attire cuz the relationship we're bound to have is a mask free zone.

I'm writing this because writing is the best way I can express myself. I'm good with words cuz I love words. One day you can be my words so I could love you too. I hope you love the things I say when I pour my heart out like this. Its funny I haven't even met you yet(or have I?) but I'm telling you all this. I just needed you to know what you are dealing with, but you probably can't get a perfect idea of me without even knowing me, so I hope to see you soon and maybe you'll get to know the type of person I am and possibly the type of man I would be to you. I pray that I don't miss out on a blessing because I was too blind to see you.

I'm not in love with you but know that I love you.

Sincerely Your Next Love,
Jeff

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