How could you have expected something I promised I'd never give
Was it fear naw it was the prior knowledge knowing that it's no way to live
I should never hold onto this pain
Because all it does is rip away at my remains
Damn I think its one of those days that barely liveable
Too bad I can’t make myself invisible
Or break through all this bullshit that’s traditional
See there should be a warning alarm when it comes to my charm.
It’s never my intentions but lately I’ve been causing harm.
Do I deserve someone in my arms?
The answer is an obvious NO because I have a hell of long away to go.
There’s still missing part to this picture
I wonder if it'll be better if I was richer
That’s probably a no too.
I wish I could redeem myself in all the female situations I've been through.
But the past is the past I cant change all the drama or who I smashed
All I can do is better myself.
I’m such a dumbass & all I can do is laugh at myself
I miss that soft voice and soft skin I used to find comfort in.
But that was some years ago.
Now I’ve just been grabbing any hitchhiker just cuz I don't wanna walk this road alone
Hell, you told me to go towards it
Wow you so angry when there’s no need for it
What happened is what happened
For the last time Im sorry for misplacing my passion.
These days I can't even get a loan to pay for your attention
Because all I've done and said has been put under suspicion
Don't get me wrong we no longer exist. There is you and there is me.
We've gone through so much shit that it’s kinda like we borderline enemies
Honestly you've helped me learn about me internally.
No more fucking around and no more romancing unpurposely
I was a fool to think we could be talking
When there are separate paths we are walking
But let me finally be over it chalk it up as a loss.
Let this no longer dwell in my thoughts
I’m going back to the lab to be innovated.
So the next time around I'll give a performance that's better demonstrated
So the next one won't think she is just an Xbox.
And before I’m stuck with something too early in wedlock
I've been had my bachelor's but I wanna resign
I wanna find that one where in life I can recline
Because I rather belong to someone cool and defined
And if Lord willing she would be really realy fine
Don’t get confused you were never a number on a list boo
We just had way too many issues
So this is goodbye and I will miss you
If you gonna shed tears here this my last tissue
Very passionate!
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