J Cole Inspired!!

Yes, this is the second installment of the "Inspired" posts. Tonight its about J. Cole, I took some of my favorite tracks from Friday Night Lights and wrote a verse to them. Its only a coincidence that I'm doing this post on a friday night lol. But check the lyrics and leave comment. As always enjoy the music!

(Too Deep For The Intro)

Im just, passing out these subtle rhymes
To keep the possession of a humble mind
What is people’s obsession with the span of time
Everyone tryna to taste what’s sunny, such a delight
But life ain’t a fairytale now they want a rewrite
See I, try taking living for what it really is
Its not easy for anyone not even newborn kids
Growing up in those empty fatherless homes
Living with a mother going to clubs more than she goes home
Then they grow up hopefully on the right path
And not just a mathematician when it comes to those dime bags
Oh damn, got them thinking they been blessed by cupid
These girls get loved then knocked up by stupid
One minute he is the man of their dreams the next he’s useless
It’ll take a half a century for young kids to realize their foolish, yea
When will they learn life isn’t short but a fragile thing
In the afterlife will the generation hear the angels or the demons sing

(Enchanted)

(How can I)
How can I accurately describe where my head is at
Maybe I can say on a distant planet with anime attached
You know where reality is not quite realistic
Where the world can have its own unique image
One introverted dude from the city with bipolar weather
Writing at his worse to make a change for the better
He will be the hero even though he considers himself a zero
Despite being born late he has the heart of a Leo
And that heart had way too much love and not even enough room
The only man known walking around with those cardio wounds
Stained with betrayal, bathed in perfume
But he so optimistic that he’ll get through
Patiently waiting for the next thing to get into
So hard to read cuz he stays in his mental
Though the guy’s a loner, he’ll always hold on ya
Loyal as a soldier, never will he turn his back on ya
Turn his back on none
There to be a friend whenever you need one
If you’re lacking affection miss he’ll lend you some
Yes there’s many Jeff’s but you’ll only think One

Come with me,
Run quick see, what do we have here
Now, do you wanna ride or die
La dadada, la la la la

Come with me,
Run quick see, what do we have here
Now, do you wanna ride or die
La dadada, la la la la

(Blow Up)

Now look at all the lyrics that I engraved,
Putting all these beats deep into their graves
This is for the people who will always be here to stay
And for those who loves to hate on anything
There’s no explosion, this before detonation
This the only fire that doubles as ventilation
Everything in the game isn’t real most is presentation
But this is proof of truth and your future decapitation
Cuz I be heading to the top with the ish that I’m on
Over here working on a legacy, outside of Tron
Every time I grab a pen and flames are drawn
So this is your burn notice. Michael West…on!

Bitch im about to Blow Up!
Look im about to Blow Up!
Yeah,
Got to the club early,
Just to get in free, And wait for hoes to show up
Man, But now theres bottles at the tables
Bring the models boy im about to pour up
Uh huh, you know what?
Bitch im about to Blow Up!

La, La La La La, La La
La, La La La La, La La
Left side Life side eh,
Right side Right side uh huh,
Left side Left side eh,
Bitch im about to Blow Up!

This is a song for my haters
Y'all got me feeling like the greatest, yeah
This is a song for my haters
Ya'll got me feeling like the greatest, yeah
Bitch im about to Blow up!

(Love Me Not)

Feel like she loves me
she loves me
and then she loves me not
she loves me not
feel like she loves me
she loves me
and then she loves me not
she loves me not
then she loves me not

From day one, she knocked me off my romantic high horse
There’s no hope in speaking let alone intercourse
Violation of the heart was a heavy reoccurrence
Looking back I never knew that I was a burden
Maybe that was my flaw cuz I was so enveloped in myself
With the phones in I couldn’t hear her heart crying out for help
Even so she still held me down
Probably wishing one day that I’ll come around
Many weeks changed and my diverted focus never really came
She always read me like a college student with a children’s book
I used to be her favorite but now I don’t get a second look
And the sad part is that it all didn’t occur to my conscience
Until we both hit rock bottom like twin Dwayne Johnsons
See my love was a whisper and I’m sorry for the broken promise
Honestly I love her but I wish never met her like Carl Thomas
Is this how it’s suppose to be
I’m alone and she’s with her girls probably roasting me
I was such an ass, baby have a toast to me
Then we can start over hopefully

More from Donald(Childish Gambino)

Interview w/ Childish Gambino from Taylor Morphy on Vimeo.

Dopeness: Runaway Short Film

Vengeful, Vigilant, but Not Quite Villian

I've been so aggravated by everything lately. Fed up with a lot and my patience have been running on E since last friday. With out going into too much details females having been pissing me off consecutively for different reasons. Fakeness, over sensitivity, advantage taking, false loyalties, lies, and outlandish comments that is slap worthy. Smh everything has been hectic lately. School has me split. Some of college I care about and the other hoops I wish I could just ignore all together. My job takes too much time out my weekends so I can't get much done over the weekend. Friends and family stressing me out, I feel so close to snapping, its all bad. Thinking bout doing some evil shit all week on different platforms and to different people. Like I'm tired of being the nice and loving guy, I feel like I want to be a straight asshole to everybody(except a select few). I've been fantasizing about causing emotional and physical harm to certain people. The evil in me is growing and if this keeps up I don't know what will happen. Good thing though I'm on the decline of this pressure and my lyrical fire was ignited the other day. But still I'm not back on a level head. Pray for me.

Anti-Hero Music:

Letter To My Future Misses

Right off the back I apologize for the male I used to be. There are things and situations I could have handle much differently but I didn't. I gave into fear, lust, and stupidity. Though I have not truly paid for my crimes I've tried real hard to become a real good person, better than I was. Now I always had the mind of a good man and the morals to back it up, but like Shaq I sucked with the follow through(Old ass reference). Even though I never viewed females as nothing more than objects of pleasure, I have had instances where that's all we was to each other. But I guarantee to you that you won't be just the object of my pleasure but the object of my heart.

I want you to occupy my time, my thoughts, my fantasies, my love at all times. Loyalty is a big thing to me. I may have a lot of female friends trust me if we are exclusive I am strictly yours and yours only. In the few real relationships I've been in I never strayed and I will continue not to with you. I've been told countless times that I'm so different from other guys, though you might agree with that statement please don't have the expectation that I am a flawless being because there are kinks in my shining armor sort of speak. Sometimes bluntness can be a problem. Also I keep quiet when things bother me but I expect you to tell me everything that ails you. That is SO backwards right. Oddly enough Im an open book when we get to know each other(like I would tell you EVERYTHING IN DETAIL about my past). I have no shame in the things I've done because every encounter with your beautiful species has been a learning experience and believe me I'm taking all that I've learned into this relationship. But for some reason I somewhat close when we start dating and keep my pain away from you because I don't want you to suffer cuz I suffer....

I'm such a loving dude that all I want to do is make you happy mentally, emotionally, and physically. I hope you're just as loving as me. I can be a headache and I'm telling you I will need your help with myself. Not financially I got that covered. I need my woman to be strong so when I'm not she can support me and bring me back to reality. I need a fighter because all relationships have rocky paths and many implode and become non-existent. To be truthful I don't want us to experience a quick demise if we have to end at all. A relationship is a working progress and if we don't want to fight we are doomed from the start. All I want to do is be a good man that my future kids can be proud of. Will you help me be that man? Or will you just pretend to be someone else to get what you want out of me? I sure hope not. I don't like playstation so I will never play for some kind of fool. So come to me from day one without your Masquerade attire cuz the relationship we're bound to have is a mask free zone.

I'm writing this because writing is the best way I can express myself. I'm good with words cuz I love words. One day you can be my words so I could love you too. I hope you love the things I say when I pour my heart out like this. Its funny I haven't even met you yet(or have I?) but I'm telling you all this. I just needed you to know what you are dealing with, but you probably can't get a perfect idea of me without even knowing me, so I hope to see you soon and maybe you'll get to know the type of person I am and possibly the type of man I would be to you. I pray that I don't miss out on a blessing because I was too blind to see you.

I'm not in love with you but know that I love you.

Sincerely Your Next Love,
Jeff

Tender Greeting:

Some Dopeness

You can find gems in the oddest places sometimes....great music minus cleveland brown's foolishness lol

Fight Verse

Tomorrow Yesterday -Fight by melleebee1990

Okay kids its time for bed
Its one of those nights your mom wants me dead
And tonight I dont want you to listen
Cuz she saw me with someone and now Im under suspicion
Come on baby, she's one of my friends
I know she pretty but I havent been between her legs
Nor have I made attempts
You are my girl so other girl dont exist
Apologize? I dont trip about you and Thomas
Im not jealous but if I find out something girl I promise
The idea of me never gonna hit might slip
And your ass my end up with a busted lip
You throwing stuff.....duck, duck, dodge
See wat you did, the neighbors called the cop
One day we could learn to keep our business private
I guess we cant get enough of our bordeline domestic violence


Baby we can fight all night, fight all day
But, love is the reason why you and i stay
You can yell out loud, yell out loud
There maybe two different ways but they both wake the neighbors

This Got That Epic Feel!!

Sharing a Little Dopeness

Its just a teaser but Im still excited

Many Microphones Teaser from Pricefilms on Vimeo.

The Roots Inspired!!

So I was listening to The Roots latest album and the vibe to start writing hit me hard so what I did was wrote a verse to some of my favorite songs from the album. I think each verse is dope in its own right. So I decided to share with y'all. Enjoy and comment.

(Doing It Again)

I keep doing it again
Im doing it again
Yes Im doing it again
I said it would end (My verse)

For the one wondering where’s the new lyrics
Im sorry I just went through an incubation period
Had to get my mind right
You know gain some insight
On what I really want out of my life
Had a lot on my shoulders, my muscles felt so tight
The brain was feeling heavy I was unable to write
Even though I was hooking words together like a matchmaker
Every time I sat down I had to throw away the scratch paper
I kept down playing all my skills
Until a friend told to start doing my shit again for real
And even though my shit kills hypocritically it heals
Cause it all maybe the ugly truth but you’ll see beauty in what I feel
The haters say nigga go ahead and find another hobby
I wanna be Lupe mix with Bob Marley
So from now on I will destroy all who try to sabotage me

(Radio Daze)

And the radio daze kept us in the dark
And the satellite age brings us to the light
Some feeling the pitch, some feeling the bite
They ain't ready to talk, they're ready to fight
Never leave you alone
(Never, never leave you alone. Never, never leave you alone)
Never leave you alone
(Never, never leave you alone. Never, never leave you alone)

I want you to tell me what your ears are tuned into
Are you dancing with the monkeys or are your ears foolproof
Do you scream revolution or do you rep that red or that blue
Are you tryna be fed or are you give up your mind to lose
See I rather have my kinda music and listen to it alone
Than to be with the crowd and live like drones
Its sad to see that good music is starving out
This is what I love so that’s why my heart is out
Yearning for a dream so my path Im a carve it out
Took a look in the past and realized my dream is far from doubt
So many cats chasing that dollar so they chains can get colder
They want that mansion, them luxury cars, and a bad chick name Rosa
While Im grinding for more such is the life of a loner
Damn, who else hates what the radio plays
When true music become the standard those will be the days

(The Day)

When I wake up, I look into the mirror
I can see a clearer, vision
I should start living today
Cause today is gonna be the day, is gonna be the day
Cause today is gonna be the day, is gonna be the day

Now everyday Im allowed to wake up is a good morning
Stare into the mirror thoughts start forming
Where is my lady lying in bed singing to lure me
With that supple voice that cures me
She, the beauty of my imagination is where I wanna be like the oldie
My ex still wish she had the old me
But I had to change teams, Im Lebron not Kobe
I had to let the man above come mold me
Cuz at the time even I couldn’t control me
Back then I was wild now I rather be lonely
I looked my devils straight in the eyes
After my victory I started to smile at the sky
See everything I write has a new kind of energy
Because my soul has transformed into a new entity
The day has just started watch me form my masterpiece

(Dear God 2.0)

Dear God, I'm trying hard to reach you
Dear God, I see your face in all I do
Sometimes, it's so hard to believe it...
But God, I know you have your reasons
(Uh huh)

Why did you let me walk with a blindfold?
Was I not worthy to possess eyes of gold?
This can’t be how living goes
Where is the different road?
Im wandering to no where carrying restricted hope
Why is that rewards only go to my foes
And little children are left to suffer alone
Crying tears of pain sadness and fear
And people just walk by no matter if they hear
Everyone is out only for themselves
So I guess no one will have friends in hell
How come murderers and rapists are able to post bail?
And why does sex have to be the only thing to sell
If I had the entire world in these hands, I would crush it into oblivion
Then take the fire of our hearts and start rekindling
We live in chaos the earth needs some Ritalin
We need another tidal wave to wash away the sin again
Is this what you intended when your words were written?
All this couldn’t be fiction
Is this really the world that you envisioned?

Well AlBe Dammed-Dope Ish!

The Girlfriend of My Enemy Can't Be My Friend......Damn!

So I have this problem, this problem I've been having for a while now. It just so happens that a lot of the females I befriend or are already friends with tend to get/have boyfriends which results in them not being able to see me because of them. Now I understand when one gets into a committed relationship the amount of communication and visits will go down, that's not where my problem lies. My issue is that their dudes don't want me no where near them.

I mean I can kinda see why they start tripping with the certain dynamics or situations that occur between that certain female and I. Sometimes they hate the fact that their girl tells me pretty much everything about the relationship from the sex to what gets on their nerves and the dudes hate that Im all in their business. Its not like I go digging for the information, they just trust me enough to share intimate details about their lives. Other times are more serious when my friend likes me more than just a friend and vice versa and when their boyfriend notices this fact it causes a bunch of problems for our friendship and their relationship. Now by no means have I helped someone cheat well at least in a physical sense Im not sure about emotionally tho. Either way a few times I have gotten threats from dudes for one reason or another.

So what am I to do? I don't wanna keep losing friends because of this problem. Especially when me and that individual has been through alot or something deep. For example(which is probably a bad one) Last night a friend of mine pretty much told me we can NEVER hang out again because of her boyfriend. She told me we've been through too much and felt too much between us which is absolutely true. Five years of romance, lust, affection, desire, or whatever u wanna title it, its brought us closer together which ironically enough pulled us apart. I decided a long time ago that I wanted to keep her as a friend cause we would never happen and I was cool with that but I guess to her it can't just be a friendship between us. Other friendships in my life are strained in this kinda way and it sucks. Either the dude is jealous/insecure with me around or just very overprotective I don't know. Maybe I just put myself in these awkward positions =/

But in honor of Smiles and our 5 years,
Chas(her) Music:

Lyrical Poem: "Dimming Star"

Maybe I have always been in the wrong. Or maybe you're just stubborn. I don't know but either way this'll be the last time I address this. And no matter how you feel about me know that I care about you.

Do you remember when I said that the day doesn't say hello without your name
Well the day hasn't greeted me in awhile, it must think I'm lame
Just like you
It seems to you that everything I say is never quite smooth
Like it was in the past, but at the same time back then you wasn't so mad
Our convos are dead and my compliments became a drag
And the shit gets to me so forgive me for being mad
But the amount of love you show me is just sad
Ok maybe I did have a couple chicks on my dick
But at the time I saw you and that was it
How can you still hold that over my head
How can that outweigh all the compassionate things I've said
We both knew that it was a fantasy that it could work
But still I didn't like when I went to flirt
It ended up making you hurt

So we took a break from each other
It didnt matter if we ached for each other
We both didnt want to be the first to speak to the other
Despite the fact that we once share music as a lover
The best 3some....your essence I needed some
Then one day you encountered a doped up alien invader
Who quickly replaced me until he became a traitor
Many of your people was heated, they was emitting vapors
Even I put my cape on for you to come save you
I thought everything would all be cool
But then I realized the person I saved was not you
Instead I saw just the shadow of your former self
Or should I said the shadow of what we former felt
We was in our made up paradise in space
But with the dynamics now I can't stand this space
And before I forget to mention
I will always care about you but I can't keep feeding your addiction to attention
I hope you find happiness wherever you are
But this is my emotional farewell to my dimming star

Dopeness

I can't wait for this project to drop tomorrow

Got This Money (Ace Hotel) from Donald Glover on Vimeo.

Another Song of the Week

Overview of Entrees by a Tired Black Man

So I went out hanging with my boy and we had another discussion about females. Specifically black females. He knows Im the gentleman type and he told even though women say they want that they don't go after it, they rather be some raggedy ass nigga than to be with a good guy which is true! He was telling me stories of how he would say something low key rude and get a positive response where as one of his friends who is nice gets no attention at all. He's the friend.

Then he showed me this movie called "Diary of a Tired Black Man" which I loved by the way.

The opening in itself was jaw dropping. Like how can these black women disrespect this dude when he is handling his and hers for that matter smh. This was amazing to see opinions for actual smart brothers that had issues with women who suffer the angry black syndrome. Now this movie is a great conversation starter and I just want to give my opinions on some points that was made as "diary entrees"

You Make No Damn Sense!!:

I never understood why women choose bums over good dudes. I've been that guy who has been right there beside a female and helped her through all her issue but I remained as a friend. I don't get it. You say you want this certain kind of guy but you overlook him because you keep him in the brother/friend zone. I knew this one chick who I told me I was guy she wanted in her life as a partner but she kept me in that friendly area and decide to stay with this dude who emotionally breaks her down all the time. Like what the fuck you know what you want and its right there in front of you so take it. When we men try to be good to you we get overlooked cuz we're nice but as soon as one or two niggas do you wrong WE ALL AIN"T SHIT.....

LET US BE US:

I don't really have much to say about this but I thought this was a great point. Why do y'all females let your friends run your relationship, especially when they single and your not. How the hell are you fully going to trust a woman who can't get/keep a man her damn self. It really causes a strain in the relationship when outside foolishness gets into it.

I'M FUCKING TIRED:

This is by far the thing I agree with the most. I hate to argue I tend not to do it because it just kills my mood and its an energy drainer. I don't know but the something in black females that insist on picking fights it could be about anything. Its like some of them like to argue so I end up upsetting the girl I'm dealing with because I refuse to argue. I go through my day with my own problems and I don't want to come home, text you, call you, or whatever and having to deal with mess. If your my girl or my wife I would love to come to you and it be peaceful. I know I'm young but I been through a long relationship where every day was a battle regardless of what I did nothing good came forth. So forgive me if my attitude is not as aggressive as you like it to be. Like the man said I just want peace of mind.

Now there are many other things to talk about but I don't have all night to do it. But if any of y'all wanna give opinions leave in the comment box or reach me some how because I would to discuss some of these issues and hear/read other view points. If anybody wants to watch this movie look it up on youtube it is there in its entirety.

Lyrical Poem: "Powerless"(freestlye to Kanye's Power)

This is for the ones who doing right that are being victimized
This is for the ones who aren't alike that are criticized
This is for the ones who are living blind
And this is for me and my written lines
All I wanna do is reach the masses
While some of y'all waiting for when my ship crashes
Waiting for me to fail when the fact is...
You think you're super strong but you're powerless
But don't worry we'll clean it up after all its our mess
You're just a product of a destructible process
And some how its like a mystery of the loch ness
Go head girl get that fat ass
And gain couple cats' stacks(Kat Stacks)
But be prepared to get laughed at
Cuz there's no respect for hoes that fast
Its the truth so dont get mad
You should be out there doing something beautiful
Something like its just your usual
Instead of feeling dirty like a sewage man's cuticles
Baby you hear that, that's your q to go

My girl angry cuz she think im cheating
Because Im over here fucking these feelings
And no its not a metaphor for several whores
Too busy dealing with mine so Im saying fuck yooooooours!
Why would I waste a moment on your kid pool emotions
When I have to be with thoughts that never sleeps
Im in a need for an Ambien indeed
Getting tired of standing tall when can I have a seat
The answer is never cuz I will never accept defeat
Like the front man of the band let me take the lead
My blood gets pumped when I listen to a beat
So its safe to say this music is in me
But here these haters go tryna turn off my radio
While bringing good meaning to they really played me yo
None of y'all can really cross fade me tho
Making believer out of all my foes
Some people say Im way too cocky
Is there some truth to that, man probably
Im just vibin' alot man honestly
Couldn't stop this if I could this' like a prophecy

Fantasy, Reality, there's always a battle between
Where ever you go you'll see some casualties
The scene is getting darker are you wearing your armor
Some of the most dangerous people are the best charmers
Take your favorite dream and turn it to your worst demon
If you stand out be careful because its hunting season
Unoriginality is what some are seeking
And going against that is like committing treason
In this nation you either live or face annihilation
So get your shit together there no time to be wasting
Go for the win with no hesitation
And gain that power back then life will be amazing

Yo that would be a beautiful death......

Unexpected Change(hearing Sun Music)

This week has started weird for me. I feel different in a good way. I feel off-kilter and I kinda like it. Im in an entirely different airspace and I think Im going to stay here and see what happens. I don't know how this came about. Maybe it's because I was cussed out by someone even though her words has nothing to do with the way I feel now. (Still sorry btw) I woke up on Monday and thought to myself good things are going to come to me and so I need to do everything I need to so all goes great. I feel changed so that's why the blog is affected because it's where I express my thoughts and feeling. So as I changed it changed. I feel like I got superpowers now lol!

My Superhero Music:

The Song of the Week

This week's song has to be one of my all time favorite Charles Hamilton songs I have ever heard

Super Dopeness!!

A short film as a movie pitch....this needs a full length movie

Finding Good Hip Hop Everyday

Phil Ade "The Letter" from Okayplayer on Vimeo.

Lyrical Poem: "Romantic Disoriented"

How could you have expected something I promised I'd never give
Was it fear naw it was the prior knowledge knowing that it's no way to live
I should never hold onto this pain
Because all it does is rip away at my remains
Damn I think its one of those days that barely liveable
Too bad I can’t make myself invisible
Or break through all this bullshit that’s traditional
See there should be a warning alarm when it comes to my charm.
It’s never my intentions but lately I’ve been causing harm.
Do I deserve someone in my arms?
The answer is an obvious NO because I have a hell of long away to go.
There’s still missing part to this picture
I wonder if it'll be better if I was richer
That’s probably a no too.
I wish I could redeem myself in all the female situations I've been through.

But the past is the past I cant change all the drama or who I smashed
All I can do is better myself.
I’m such a dumbass & all I can do is laugh at myself
I miss that soft voice and soft skin I used to find comfort in.
But that was some years ago.
Now I’ve just been grabbing any hitchhiker just cuz I don't wanna walk this road alone
Hell, you told me to go towards it
Wow you so angry when there’s no need for it
What happened is what happened
For the last time Im sorry for misplacing my passion.
These days I can't even get a loan to pay for your attention
Because all I've done and said has been put under suspicion
Don't get me wrong we no longer exist. There is you and there is me.
We've gone through so much shit that it’s kinda like we borderline enemies
Honestly you've helped me learn about me internally.
No more fucking around and no more romancing unpurposely
I was a fool to think we could be talking
When there are separate paths we are walking

But let me finally be over it chalk it up as a loss.
Let this no longer dwell in my thoughts
I’m going back to the lab to be innovated.
So the next time around I'll give a performance that's better demonstrated
So the next one won't think she is just an Xbox.
And before I’m stuck with something too early in wedlock
I've been had my bachelor's but I wanna resign
I wanna find that one where in life I can recline
Because I rather belong to someone cool and defined
And if Lord willing she would be really realy fine
Don’t get confused you were never a number on a list boo
We just had way too many issues
So this is goodbye and I will miss you
If you gonna shed tears here this my last tissue

Week 14: Song of the Week

This week song is brought to you by Asher Roth(the 3rd white rapper I truly respect) and its off the Seared Foie Gras mixtape

Random: Um This Is Different

Im sorry I haven't had much to blog about lately I kinda have writers block smh but this is sad funny and kinda dope all at the same time

What's Really Going On?

*this is purely thoughts and opinions NOTHING more*

So for the past half hour I've been sitting here watching videos and I came across this video that had to do with Freemasons and hip hop. Now in this video they had clips of an interview with Dave Chappelle on the Oprah Show. I have never seen this interview so i decided to watch the whole thing. Now hearing the rumor that the boule had something to do with him leaving the show and Oprah being apart of this group I was little weary about this interview.

Watching Dave during this interview he seemed very tense the entire time. Maybe it was just because he was sitting next to Oprah and he was nervous, idk. But the way the interview went interested me so I decided to share. Maybe im just paranoid but to me it seemed like when Dave would be headed somewhere the conversation would change subjects either through editing or Oprah interrupting him. I just thought it was odd and by the end of the interview it seemed that Dave was holding back on what he really wanted to say and started changing his wording up and such. Every time I watch Dave do an interview about what happened to me if feels like he doesn't say everything about hollywood and his situation. Hollywood seems to wreck a lot of people and I can't see the reason in any of it. Maybe Im just being a conspiracy theorist but still something doesn't sit right with me on many topics the interview(s) brings up. Give me your thoughts and opinions on anything that pertains to the matter.

Random: Anyone want a KIA???

Love this commercial.....

Week 13: Song of the Week

All I can say is welcome back Ye. The song is called "Power"



K p by user9196076

Lyrical Poem: "Critics or Crickets"

Do you hear all the cheers coming from the stands
Well everybody up there I call my friends
Can you hear them scream cuz I just hit a homer
Its surprising Im surrounded by people because Im such a loner
Anyways, Im making hits like my last name was Ortiz
And yet you keep questioning me like we're on formspring
I used to have a queen with common sense, everything was just right
Now Im back on my own and all I do is just write,
Out my entire life to reach them satellites
Got NASA asking questions they tryna reach my heights
But here you are beating me down giving me scars
Doubting my every step saying I won't go far
Like my parents you're tryna ground me
Instead keeping me in the clouds where u found me
What you rather do is bring me down and just clown me
Everything I am and do you find funny
Well Im sorry Im not Richard Pryor jokes for dummies

Even though some girls don't like me, even when I try my best
I still yell "Hey Mami", like I was Delonte West
She'd tell me Im too lame Im not thug enough
Well baby Im not "hard" but Im tough in love
She just waves me off and told me to get lost
But when she gets in relationship where she is an employ to a boss
Guess who's the first person that she calls
Because she knows the man who wanted to give her all
She mad and beaten down Im a have to kick her
Cuz as soon as I turn her down then Im gonna be another nigga
Life doesnt always work the way you want it
Sometimes life is dark and Im just coming back from it
So Im living it my own way no time to listen
Once something happens to me you run and get your tickets
My life ain't a movie so I don't need you critics
To me you on silent like you are some crickets

This the Only Way to Express My Mood

Come On Ladies

So I went out kicking it with one of my friends and the subject of the night was basically about the females we've came across in the past year. The sad part of it is we really didn't have ANY good stories to tell. Most of the college girls we met were still on some high school stuff which shouldn't be the case. My boy and I agree that the majority of females we come across are either arrogant bitches or straight up hoes.

Because of this fact we started reminiscing about the beautiful and sexy girls from high school. We came to realization that back in high school when we would date a girl or at least have sex with a girl for the most part we could be proud of who we were with or who we laid down with but now that we're in college the things we were once proud of has lost much value. Relationships no longer are relevant because all we've come across are females who wouldn't be worth dating at least in our eyes. And sex is not even fun no more because we get it too easily. All I'm asking for is something real.

Now there are few exceptions to these females in our first year of college but all and all with the girls we've seen are just not worth it. Him and I both are lovers of black girls but the problem is a lot of them had terrible attitudes which also brought up the topic of why we black men date outside our race. What has happened to females? We're tired of suffering because you decided to lay up with a raggedy mother fucker and he treated you bad. We're tired of these hot ass messes we call females.

My boy has his approach of how he will deal with the girls in his life and I know what Im doing from now. He is on that "fuck women shit" which means he is not looking for a relationship and when he fucking some girl that's all it will be. Now I don't agree with that method of course but what can you do when you know how crazy girls are being these days. And as for myself Im being celibate from now on until I find an actual woman who is relationship material. Im tired of this dumb ass drama I go through so Im doing something about it. I had friends with benefits and Im so over it!

I know we as men have a lot of improving to do, but I think females seriously need to get there shit together. A lot of y'all need to regain some class, tone down your arrogance, throw away the past, stop being so needy that you'll lay or be with just anybody because your lonely, become beautiful not just for me but for your damn selves, and be how real women should be because when I look at a lot of y'all..........its sad.

New Song of the Week

I know I know I missed last week's song but I think this song makes up for it completely. This song is brought to you by Childish Gambino. And its accompanied by a picture of the ever so beautiful Stacey Dash. Enjoy!


So Fly (ROUGH) by Childish Gambino

Vegas & I are Chuckin' Deuces

Today's post is a lyrical treat for you. It just so happens a good friend of mines ("Samantha Vegas") and myself wrote a verse to the same song. Personally both of our verses are dope, so I felt like sharing our writing talents. Now Sam is a singer she blends rock/r&b even though she don't claim r&b lol. And as ya know I write hip hop. But anyways enjoy the actually song and Vegas and I's lyrics.



(Chris Brown chorus)
Im on some new shit
Im chuckin my deuces up to her
Im moving on to something better, better, better
No more tryin to make it work
You made me wanna say bye bye, say bye bye, say bye bye to her [x2]

(My Verse)
Damn girl here we go again, in a situation that we frozen in
I made it a mission to get to your heart but now that Im closing in
Things are getting rough, our love needs some lotioning
The honeymoon is over I guess there’s no more toasting then
We keep undercutting each other like we roasting in
Self-hatred and painful blaming that’s never ending
Baby what is going on, my phone is off, lets finally have this talk
Because Im tired of this battle where there will be no victor
Why is it even when Im right I am still not the winner
We used to be so stress free we was straight kush
Now every time I try to get to the bottom you straight push
So fuck it we done its officially over
Don’t try and cry now because Im no longer your shoulder
You didn’t try to make it work, so why should I linger
So the last thing Im gonna give you is these two fingers
Deuces!!

(Chris Brown chorus)
Im on some new shit
Im chuckin my deuces up to her
Im moving on to something better, better, better
No more tryin to make it work
You made me wanna say bye bye, say bye bye, say bye bye to her [x2]

(Vegas verse)
Around the corner, turned the page, flipped that script on ya
Stop playing me like a violin in an orchestra
Take a bow, bow out man, your finished
You were the only one, not some number on a list
Girls coming round by the pound
Yo what's up wit this?
Like a spot in the playoffs, I thought I had it clenched
Fuck a number 2 pick
Fuck sitting on the bench
I give up
Now I'm chuckin tha deuces

(Vegas Bridge)
You always had your way
My decisions you swayed
What we had was strained
Now the price is yours to pay

(Chris Brown chorus)
Im on some new shit
Im chuckin my deuces up to her
Im moving on to something better, better, better
No more tryin to make it work
You made me wanna say bye bye, say bye bye, say bye bye to her [x2]

Check out Samantha's blog @ http://psshhhhxdopeness.blogspot.com

Transcending

If any of you have been paying attention to my blog you may have notice that I've been lacking in the entree department. Its partly because of college stuff but mostly its because I have not been feeling myself. I've needed therapy for the past two months and usually life is not that bad. (And when I say therapy I mean tons of headphone therapy and lyrical ventilation) It just seems everything has not gone in my favor.

I'm all kinds of confused lately. Its like I don't give a shit about anything but at the same I'm hurting on the inside. I've becoming more Emo as of late and that's not necessarily a good thing. When Im Emoed out my writing may get a bit more deeper and spacious and my feeling are locked away for safe keeping but I also become depressed a lot, I get sick of almost everything and I tend to not a care about.....ANYONE. Im at a lost but its the summer and its a perfect time to become better than who I have been. Im tired of this form of my life. I wanna be everything I aspire to be and I wanna have everything I desire to have. No more laziness and feeling sorry for myself. I got to be less introverted and be brave enough to accept my full potential.

Its some what odd that many off my friends are going through some kind of change with in themselves too. So if you guys are reading this I hope you are able to become the people you want to be. Lets take it to the next level and I just I'll be up there with ya.

Week 11: Song of the Week

I know I know its really late in the week but I still should post a song for this week. I dedicate this to one of my celebrity crushes Sanaa Lathan

Lyrical Poem: "Defeated!"

She claims that she's strong but her heart is still breaking
She stuck in the bad but choose to stay in a ship thats sanking
Steady stuck in the past too scared to see the future
She was made to be a winner but rather play the loser
All I hope is one day someone will get to her
Give her real love so they can sooth her
And protect her from all her pain
She gave a man her all and still no rings
So I guess she the female LeBron James
So much hard work didn't amount to a thing
And shawty has so much intelligence
And on the real she has a body thats heaven sent
But according to her everything's all good
Even though she no longer glows like she should
I joke around and say she needs to get her superpowers one day
When in truth she is the one who needs to be saved
I know trust is not given it is earned
But if there's no trust in it that's cause for concern
She walking around negative but she still feels burned
Sees her life so negative but she never wants to make the turn
On the path to a place that is better suited
For her to be happy where she's no longer losing
She was so sexy, so beautiful you'd have to see to believe it
But it maybe to late because all she is now is a woman defeated

Week 10: Song of the Week (Replacement)

Since Sony snatched all traces of Lupe Fiasco and Alicia Keys' "Love Letter to the Beat" off of youtube I thought I should replace it with an equally good song. This song is brought to you by the duo from 9th Wonder's camp. Actual Proof may be the next great hip hop tag team. We will see enjoy this song and/video

ACTUAL PROOF - GENIUS from Pricefilms on Vimeo.

Heartbroken Heartbreaker

Well well well my luck with the opposite sex is just fantastic. (Pure sarcasm) If you noticed I deleted my "Share a story" post for a few reasons. First off it didn't serve its purpose so I got rid of it. And apparently another situation with a different lady (which she is nice btw) has went from completely understanding our dramatic end yesterday to her taking shots at me. hmmmmm maybe it was because of Tuesday post but whatever. She can hate me as long she lives happily.

But on the real I need to stop dealing with females, especially the emotionally inept ones. Smh! I can't understand why my luck is so bad. Maybe its the way I handle the situations. Maybe its my fault. I don't ever want to break anyone hearts because when I do my heart breaks too. It is what it is. Maybe I should stop falling for chicks who are distant from me, emotionally and/or physically. Im so frustrated from all this drama. Im really pissed off right now but Im trying to keep my composure. There's nothing like being dissed by a woman you care about, that shit is painful. It FUCKING suck!! I just wanna love someone. Ima hopeless romantic maybe. Im doing too much because when I try to love someone I just hurt them. Im a working progress.

And if any of the women from my past are reading this. I am sorry I failed to live up to the standards I set for myself. I know apologizing does not take the pain away, y'all may think Im an ass which I probably deserve. I just wish things could of been different. And I hope one day y'all can find true happiness, sincerely Jeff "The Asshole".

Music is Beautiful

When I was feeling really down today this video brought me up. Lupe helped me bounce back. And I thank him for speaking to me in my time in need. He says so much in one verse it's just amazing. Enjoy this video.

Beautiful Lasers - Lupe Fiasco (Snippet) Live from HD on Vimeo.

Week 10: Song of the Week

This weeks song is brought to you by Lupe Fiasco & Alicia Keys. This is a simply amazing song.

Been Slipping

Lately I have not been feeling myself. I have been going through so many damn emotions it is ridiculous. It was sort of over bearing when it came to college, people, and myself. I felt so much anger and sadness that it is so out of character for me. I don't know if Im just going through some phase or something but it has not been good.

I had so many questions internally that I needed to ask myself. Why have I hurt people I care about? Why does the girl I care about have so stubborn and won't talk to me? Why have I been settling for things? Why have I been acting on impulse instead thinking about it like normal? Why does my soul feel starved? What am I missing in my life? What am I lacking to make myself better? Why am I confused?

I've been feeling off my game for awhile now. Its like I was slipping back into my emo tendencies. That's why I haven't really blogged about anything, but I hope you have been enjoying my "lyrical vents" that I have been posting as of late. Im trying to get back to me. I need whatever I need immediately!

Lyrical Poem: "Stressed"

Im starting to think life's a hoe because damn it sucks
Im so stressed out and I haven't slept well in months
So much pressure to be someone else and I dont give a fuck
While you eating dessert Im dreaming about tomorrow's lunch
Actually Im thinking of everything I failed to excel in
Im tired of running this race Im wishing it'll all end
Because all who say they down are not my real friends
Its hard to see my world you'll need a special lens
But no one will take the time to understand
So I feel like Im living for nothing man
Im tired of college because I feel its scam
Its another mundane task that prevents who I am
And Im sick of finding girls that is only worth laying with
Why is it so hard to find a woman that is worthy of staying with
God why do you think its cool to treat my life like a keyboard and start playing it
Just give me my day of reckoning instead of saving it
I dont know maybe im just searching for a revelation
Something that I can admire because its amazing
Sometimes I wanna take a bullet to the head but Im to much of a bitch too
But God step in a gave me lyrics and said "Use these to get through
And when time is right you will finally smile for real
And your personal galaxy will finally become the ideal"
But its hard to deal with when people in the world are obnoxious
And all this ignorance and greed is so toxic
Im getting sick of it all I could literally vomit
I gotta hold it together as a personal promise
Cause at the end of the day we all suffer as human beings
It take a strong will to keep chasing one's dream
Im so fucking tired I don't know if I have anything left
At least it'll be easier since I got a little bit off my chest

Week 9: Song of the Week

Hey how's everyone do this beautiful day? Today Im feeling great and I think this week song should reflect my mood.

A Dose of Comedy

This is purely for entertainment and I felt like sharing....The Boondocks will return on May 2nd and I can NOT wait.

Lyrical Poem: "Reflection"

Can someone please tell me the value of a mother's tears
How much more we gotta give to have this mindless, violence disappears
Right here, in what we have called the greatest country for years
Until we grow as a people,
Its not hard to be in peace its just easier to be evil
Children who have barely lived are meeting the creator
And there's not much I can do so I keep the world in my prayers
Too many storm clouds there's no light from our savior
So we fall into the gifts given by the in-slavers
We do too much to show that we shining and we got money
Our pockets are rich but we poor in the mind, we are some dummies

Abandoning all love except for the love of the glamor
Drugs, gangs, money, and ignorance is my culture's cancer
The scientist says there's no cure, I think my words posses the answer
You are more than a gangster you're more than a dancer
You're more than a hoe you are better than a bitch
We're more than an embarrassment we amount to more than shit
We are all angels sent here on a mission
But the world makes us blinded to our intuition
The screams of a community, the blood from a youngster
Its been a half of century of this, haven't you begun to wonder
Why we try so hard to be on top but we end up being under
Our hearts provides the rain, our pain provides the thunder

Its human nature to always want something
But sadly we find out for years we've be chasing nothing
Now we feel stranded and damn we all alone
America works together as a people but yet people still have no homes
The country was proud to go out and help Haiti
But when it comes to the suffering ones here we've become lazy
We carry too many issues for our lives to intertwine
So we ignore the obvious because if its out of sight its out of mind
We just zombies walking with our spirits forever broken
Dying on the inside from words never spoken
Feeling defeated but we still hoping
Lets stand up instead of going with the motions
Lets better the world for the future generations
So the horrors we had do not need explanations
And feel the implications of our past failures
New history needs to be made, become one of the tailors

Random: In CH News......

Charles Hamilton at S.O.B's

Im Gonna be a Hero!!! (What for??)

Im realizing more and more with different people I encounter that one of my biggest flaws is my hero complex. I always have that ideology that I can help someone through talking to them or just hanging with them, you know be there in their moments or pain, sadness, and weakness. But sadly I have not gain much from being this nice or being this reliable I should say. No matter what we've been through if we had some type of good friendship I would help anyway I could. Lately I've been noticing that the things I do, do not matter to some people. No matter whatever we've gone through I seem to be unappreciated. I can't see why I still try to help people, male and female alike, when I don't get anything in return. Its not that I want a reward its just that I want confirmation that my friendship or my relationship with you means something to you or is every one of my deeds disposable. I want to stop but I can't. There are few who do appreciate the advice, the shoulder, the ears I offer to them when they need to get over an emotional & mental ordeal. It bothers me sometimes when I put so much work in for nothing. Maybe Im the one that needs saving......

Week 8: Song of the Week

This week's song is off of Bobby Ray's debut album The Adventures of Bobby Ray. Its a great track and I love that he has Hayley Williams on it, because I love Paramore too, its a great blend of music. Check it out.


B.o.B - Airplanes ft. Hayley Williams of Paramore [Explicit] by Atlantic Records

Lyrical Poem: "Just Emotions"

Have you ever dreamt of willingly walking into traffic
Or fearfully thought bout lying in your blood like a mattress
We get stretched in so many ways, man Im not elastic
That's why I wanna throw my hands up and say that's it
All this shit is madness, while I hurt you're laughing
I pretend to be but Im far from invincible
Sometimes I wish I could be invisible
And witness all the things I don't see
You want me to be one way sorry I wont be
Actually I can't be,
I was taught there is nothing better than being me
But being who I am has its draw backs
Yet having self doubt Im off that
Can you say that?
Or do you cry every time you lay back
Your past made you never forsake that
If you got off, dust yourself and get back on track
Because most of the world doesn't help but distract
So forgive me if I just seem detached

I don't do drugs because anime is crack
I know, wow Im lame, yea Im whack
The only one who ever gets me is my laptop when I type
Cause I tend to put my soul in everything I write
I can't say I love life
Hell I haven't known love in a long time
I try to create it but its always at the wrong time
Just a heartbroken loner that can't so I make the song cry
Sick of people with no sense of self, who you telling
Rap really sucks so does niggas, I guess I love rebellion
No longer letting another female affect my mood
Fuck em all, wait that's being rude
When in truth women will always mean a lot to me
Hmmm sounds like Im contradicting me

Oh well, I was sad when Vegas had to go back to her hometown
She was another "weirdo" but Im back on my own now
And I swear Mariah will always be a spark to our fire
I don't know what it is but that attraction will never retire
I haven't met my Alicia but I met this lovely Key
I wanna be good to her and she would be great for me
But no matter how I try to give it no one will have my heart
Because its completely chained down by my art
Every day I try to find the light out this dark
Unfortunately I know this aint my entire trial but only the start
However hard these waves are in this ocean
Ima ride it all out not regretting one moment
As long as I have my headphones I know where home is
I need to calm down because these are just emotions

Week 7: Song of the Week

This has to be this week song. This song is so powerful. It makes you think about the decisions we make in life and how that can affect us. Life is to valuable, we need to remember that!

*Go to the youtube page or www.whereischarleshamilton.com to get the story about this song*

Cole World Order

Now everyone who has visited my blog before knows the Charles Hamilton is my favorite artist right now BUT honestly this year is J Cole's year. Of course Im waiting on CH's official album hopefully he'll surprise us and drop it soon but as of right now J Cole is on the fast track to becoming big in sense of getting radio play. This dude presents his music in a way that's intelligent and yet anyone can get into it. From the raggedy people in the world who like Waka Flaka to people who genuinely love hip hop like me. J Cole is problem!

Late Night Freestyle

Sometimes I go on tangents on my twitter (@j1lyrical) and freestyle randomly while listening to music. Well these are one of those times. Enjoy *Warning: sexually suggestive lyrics*

Tell me what were you thinking when you first heard me speaking
Baby never mind I already know because your body started leaking
Pull off the covers and hop back top of you, no need for you to be leaving
Damn you so fine you can stay here for another evening
This is not casual sex where we both disconnect from the world
Actual its the opposite, when we connect your toes are guaranteed to curl
We've gone about 6 rounds, do you wanna go again?
Trust me Im tryna be way more than just a great story you tell your friends
Im the type of guy who would fuck you hard but touch you gently
Doing damage to your body but making love to you mentally
Go ahead and work hard like a kid doing choirs and watch it pay off
Ima make you feel like you never came before when I break it off
Baby take it off better yet let me do it.
You say I talk a lot of shit well tonight Ima prove it
Any hesitation like you clothes, remove it

I wanna take you around the world is your body ready for touring
Give it to you right in light of another beautiful morning
But its nothing like your beauty
Nothing else matter but you & me
I love doing you and I know you love doing me
You got me doing shit that's new to me
You said you were scared to let another nigga get close.
Well Im a man, you a woman, I won't treat you less but I'll give the most
Im more about love than about a fight.
And Im different so I wont hit you with lines like...
"Shawty throw that ass and let me hit like we in the homerun derby
And girl make sure u get on your knees and suck it up just like Kirby"
No worries them niggas are just simpletons
And me I hope you find me interesting

Tonight Ima drive you crazy, might as well fuck in a room with padded walls
Im not planning to give you a taste, girl you can have it all
From the head to the balls. When the session is ova all you'll be able to do is crawl You'll have no idea where you're at but you'll be happy lost
This is not to toy with your emotions
I know its not important but I got a big enough boat to handle your ocean
Lets create the perfect bedroom storm. This is passion fucking in its rarest form. What we do will not be seen in porn or even another home
I can replace that headaches with the waves my head makes
We both gotta go to work but fuck it we're gonna be late
Looking into each others eyes
All we want is to be forever trapped in this night
But its iight, tomorrow we can rewind & have your neighbors going out their minds

Week 6: Song of the Week

This week's song is taking it back. Im a huge fan of old school. Pretty much Motown and R&B. And this song right here is one of my favorite songs of ALL TIME. If you don't listen to old school R&B and Soul you need to!

Window Seat

Ms. Badu has made another great song. I love this video, you will to either for the booty or the symbolism

Binge Bitch!!! lol

Today has just gotten a little better :) Why?

This is why:


This mixtape is fucking hot!!!! Get It!
Go to http://thisischarleshamilton.com/ for the mixtape